Restraint.

"Do you want me to kill myself?!?"

Those were the words
That have echoed
In my ears
For three years..

The beginning
Of the end.

[But it would take a while to get to the breaking point.]

The day A.B.F.
Spoke those words
And pulled out the knife,
Was a day in my life
That will go down in the history
Of stupid
Things that have happened.
On both ends.

I was scared.

Of what,
I do not know.

Two days later....

I was home
And still numb.

I woke up
And burst into tears.

"What's wrong?"
My sister
Asked, lovingly.

I didn't know how to say,
"My boyfriebd told me I was the devil
And said he wanted to kill himself."

So, I just came out
And said it.

'Oh Girl!"
Her words kind,
She embraced
Me with loving
Arms.

"What do you wanna do?"
She asked.

"I don't know,"
I said.

"Lets call Mom and the sisters
And see what they
Have to say,"
My sister spoke
As she picked
Up her phone...

An hour later
We decided
That it was best
To get a restraining
Order...

So that's what we would do.
On Monday.

I spent the next two days
Crying
And sleeping.

[Looking back, I don't know why I was soo upset. Maybe out of desperation?]

Monday morning came
And I woke up early
To get to the court house
By nine am.

Showered and numb,
We drove
Off into the city.

As we got closer and closer
I knew things were different.

I knew I had to be done.
And I was.
For a moment.

When it was over,
I cried.

As the days passed
A.B.F.'s family
Texted me.

They were saying such nice things.
They still cared.
They loved me.
Then they said
He wanted to meet me Thursday
To "talk."

I froze.

It was him  the whole time.

I didn't want to see him
Nor did I want him to get arrested...

Like a fool.
I met him.

He sweet talked
His way back
Into my life.

Just like that,
The lies
Started again.

On both parts.

I dropped
The restraining order
The next day
And everything
Was 'perfect'
Again.
We had to hide
And we both knew it...

Later that day,
My sister
Would find us
At U.S. Bank.

Everything
Fell
Apart.

It wouldn't be the last time.